Death. It is inevitable .....but what frightens me most about it is that I don't know when it will strike.
If I should die tonight in my sleep, I would want to be remembered as that chirpy soul that brought light to everyone I interacted with, and some peop
le may find this desire to always be the chirpy girl repulsive and cheesy. However, that is MY desire. I want to inspire others as much as I can, and the first step, which is sooooo easy, is to share happiness with others. If I can infect someone with my happiness I am sure it will inspire them to be happy, even if its just in that moment. Now, no-one on Planet Earth can constantly be happy, but I find that since I had....subconsciously....made this desire a duty of mine, it has been much easier to control those moments of sadness or anger or whatever.... even without noticing. The "duty" sends a "feel good" toxin to my brain and when I think about people (.....GENERALLY) the "feel good-ness" infects my actions. I love saying good morning to my EBC family, I love looking up a relevant quote that I think may be helpful, I love finding stuff to share that may make you laugh .....and I love the fact that this passion flows through me so naturally and effortlessly. For as long as I can remember, I have always been that crazy friend who made everyone smile, but I never realized before that I actually feed off the energy I get from making others happy.
I shall confess to you, when I wake in the mornings it is important for me to log on and say good morning to you just as I do with my immediate family and friends..... sometimes if I wake "too early" I will wait until a more friendly time when I know most of you are likely to see the post. At times when I don't get to say good morning I actually feel guilty....just as though I would feel if I didn't say morning to my immediate family/ friends.
An acquaintance of mine was recently robbed of her life and all I keep thinking about her is her humility and pleasant countenance despite the high esteem that she had earned herself over her lifetime. The day of the incident I was thinking about her humble nature. Just the humility she possessed was enough to make me cry.....and I thought to myself this is how I want to be remembered. If people cry when I die, it should be a respectable 'cry' that inspire change in the person as opposed to just merely being a sorrowful 'cry'. I want to be grounded in humility and bring light and joy to every person I interact with, and in that moment, when I was having these thoughts I was not fearful of death.
So I have resolved to continue being 'cheesely' chirpy, to continue flooding you with happy thoughts and wishes, to continue being loving towards you because I do love you and even though we are an extended family, you ARE my family...you ARE my 'bread providing family'...without you there will be no me....or at least....not a FED me, and as easy as that is to be taken for granted, it is an important factor to remain mindful of and be humbled by.
How do you want to be remembered when you die? I urge you to work towards ensuring that is how you will be remembered.
- Sincerely, Naj
RIP CMG, ♥
I shall confess to you, when I wake in the mornings it is important for me to log on and say good morning to you just as I do with my immediate family and friends..... sometimes if I wake "too early" I will wait until a more friendly time when I know most of you are likely to see the post. At times when I don't get to say good morning I actually feel guilty....just as though I would feel if I didn't say morning to my immediate family/ friends.
An acquaintance of mine was recently robbed of her life and all I keep thinking about her is her humility and pleasant countenance despite the high esteem that she had earned herself over her lifetime. The day of the incident I was thinking about her humble nature. Just the humility she possessed was enough to make me cry.....and I thought to myself this is how I want to be remembered. If people cry when I die, it should be a respectable 'cry' that inspire change in the person as opposed to just merely being a sorrowful 'cry'. I want to be grounded in humility and bring light and joy to every person I interact with, and in that moment, when I was having these thoughts I was not fearful of death.
So I have resolved to continue being 'cheesely' chirpy, to continue flooding you with happy thoughts and wishes, to continue being loving towards you because I do love you and even though we are an extended family, you ARE my family...you ARE my 'bread providing family'...without you there will be no me....or at least....not a FED me, and as easy as that is to be taken for granted, it is an important factor to remain mindful of and be humbled by.
How do you want to be remembered when you die? I urge you to work towards ensuring that is how you will be remembered.
- Sincerely, Naj
RIP CMG, ♥
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